cant think about anything else
8:47 p.m. | 2006-02-20
Desparation will drive you to lengths you never believed possible. I signed up for an account with answerology, after hearing some of the responses on some random net article on dating. You know what question I asked. There is a pretty good chance that Drew wants to be more than friends. It just sucks that it I cant believe it deep down. Im like, "what? please, it's not true". I have been busting my ass ever since he asked me to play pool again. I still feel that he is trying to prove a point somehow. It's really torture for me. I am trying to lose weight so hard now. As if that is going to guarantee that he will like me.
I notice too that it is extremely difficult to focus on school. I hate my classes and refuse to put anymore energy into finishing the survey project. I havent touched my proposal in a week. I just cant focus on anything. I am so worried about when my life going to change for the better, that I am ignoring the now and making my future look bleek.
I have only one more day to compose myself. I am between this "I'd rather roll over and die" and "I should just kiss him and see what happens" zone. I have no clue how to behave. I guess answerology was a bad idea.
And now I cant drink because I am dieting. FUCK!!
I suggest:
Stressful Sundays make for great sleep and Happy Mondays. Make yourself a Vodka Cranberry and soak away that 9 hour shift in a hot bath. Your feet will thank you.