say "I told you so", but you are just as confused as I am
3:19 p.m. | 2006-03-21
hehehe dont laugh, but Drew and I went out again. I know, I went through this whole catharsis earlier that ended in me deleting all evidence of his existance. But then he got in contact with me, and he asked me to join him for a drink. And that was last Wednesday around 3:30 in the afternoon. Granted it was Spring Break, but damn, I dont drink like that (any more lol).
I turned him down and instead we watched the opener for the NCAA basketball tourny that Thursday. Pretty good time I guess. He ended up leaving early since his fav team Indiana played in the next set of games, and he had to be alone. Weird as hell, but I went along with it. We hugged and that was it. He paid for my drinks, but I dont know what to think. As you have heard several times before, I keep asking about my "situation" on that Answerology.com site (so damn addicting!). I get mixed answers, most of which point to me not putting up with the bull crap, such as him not picking me up, and all that random shit. The one thing that still stands true is that I have no business asking someone to kiss me. My co-worker had a point.
But at the same time, it's like, I have nothing else. Gina brings up the fact that I got guys calling all the time, but then they dont offer dates, dinner, movies, drinks, none of that. All I get is "girl, come over tonight" and we all know what that means. So it's better to have a friend that is a gentleman who is sincere and all, as opposed to random sexual encounters, right? I know it's possible to make relationships out of sex, but it's hard and I feel that they dont last. I would rather have a friend who's gonna be there. It just drives me nuts that I am not getting exactly what I want when there are girls out there that do. They get picked up, dinner, movies, the works. Ugh. I should be thankful, but maybe later on, things will get better??
Let's not even mention the fact that he could be moving in a few months. Geez singledom blows.
I suggest: St. Patricks Day calls for Side Cars and shots of Whiskey. Drink someone under the table for a nice set of beads. Get your Irish on!!