Oh he's just some guy I went to some house and slept with once
10:10 a.m. | 2006-07-18
Almost a week later I find out that I should listen to my inner doubts. I never usually get my hopes up as it is, but the ways things were going, it couldnt be helped. I really wanted something more, and when you look at what someone does, (as hard as to interpret as they were) you could really think that there was something going on.
I called Drew after listening to my sister be completely honest with me about what would happen. She really hit thing on the head, and I knew that this situation would be hard to deal with. I was suppose to call on Sunday, but jumped the gun on Saturday night and used AIM to talk with him. Of course, I couldnt bring up us, so I ended the conversation and decided to wait until Monday (cuz, you know, I hate looking like a stalker). I brought it somehow, despite the long conversation about lab coats. And just like my sister said he would, he asked "Well, what do you feel and where do you want it to go?" If only I could have seen my face of "damn!". So I answered semi-honestly that I wasnt really sure, that I would like something exclusive but that I was unsure about how I felt. He said he was on the same page, that he liked me, but that he wasnt sure he was ready for something exclusive, he just got of a year and a half long relationship.
So at that point, I knew I was screwed. I heard a resounding "I told u so" from my sister. She had explained that any unsures, maybes and I dont knows were understood to be "no, Im just not that into you" and suggested that I tell him that we shouldnt see each other at that point. I never got that out, instead I decided that I would avoid him, make up some excuses, and if he ever brought anything up, I would either explain how confusing it would be for us to continue while being unsure what either of us wanted, or lie and say that I was seeing someone else.
So again, failed attempt at having anything normal. I dont feel bad that I slept with him (to some extent) but Im angry that at some point he didnt feel the need to explain his behavior. I could have said no at any time, but what is irksome is that if he was so unsure about what he wanted, he shouldnt have touched me that night. I feel like he really was taking advantage of a situation (hot girl lying in my bed sick and vulnerable? I'd be stupid not to!) or that he just wanted to sleep with me from the beginning, that he just needed the right situation to come along. He tried me that night because we were suppose to do something, but saying that I "waited too late to eat" and that he wasnt leaving his house, so I should come over, was a setup to see if I would do it. He's smart and knows that I like him, but I hope there's going to be a little bit of guilt when he asks me to do something again and I say no.
I suggest:
Move on and see if he does the same ... oh and have a cosmo while you're moving.